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Being 25

  

So, the birthday have just passed and I finally hit the 25 mark. This is the age where we call the ‘Quarter Life Crisis’. 

I’ve a stable job that I enjoyed though it took up a lot of my time. I’m finally putting my words into action and taking the first steps into make up artistry. I’m starting to plan my finances though it’s a bit late and I’m ashame to say I do not have a substantial amount of savings yet. Yes, perhaps I should not spend a huge amount of my paychecks on dolls and life is pretty boring without a hobby. I should probably slow down on acquiring new dolls though. But baby steps first, one step at a time and I believed I’m able to set aside funds for myself in future. 

Relationships wise, it’s complicated. I think I’ve too high an ego for a woman. Perhaps, it is better that I just be alone. 

Friendships wise, I guess it changes as we all aged. Time is a huge factor to friendships I think. Gone are the days where we can meet whenever we want. We all have our own schedules and it’s simply too hard to find a time that every single one is free. But I guess, those who will stay will stay and those who wants to leave will bound to leave. 

Family wise, I’m glad I’m spending more time with my brothers and my mum. Back when I was a lot younger and full of negativity, I resented them and blame them for many things in life. But as I grow up and mature a little over time, I started to appreciate them bit by bit. We might not be the most perfect or normal family out there but I believed that we are happy in the way we are. 

As for this space, I actually have mixed feelings. There was a time I had my peak as a blogger but it didn’t last long and I fell hard. Though I must say that I’m very grateful for those who believe and supported me all this while. There might not be many now, but as a writer and creator I’ll still continue to churn out content for my dear readers. This space holds my dreams and passion and I know I will not give it up easily. 

Life is short, too short to be sad about. I will try my best to make myself happier and a better person as each day passes. 

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

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Hello 2015!

Hello 2015!

Happy New Year by the way people!

I know I’m a little late for new year greetings and a tad too early for Chinese new year ones.

Hope 2015 have been kind to everyone so far. 🙂

I am not going to go through a list of new year resolutions as I hardly ever achieve anything all these years.
Hence I don’t really see a point to think of resolutions that I will probably forget a few weeks into the new year.

2014 have been a rough year for me.
Been through job changes, new environments and having to adapt and learn the ropes all over again twice. I’m glad to say at least I’m happy with where I’m now though I’ve longer working hours and not working in the glamorous CBD area anymore.

The blog have been pretty stagnant too as I was distracted with too many things that have been going on in my life. I changed to a self hosted server and switched to a simpler layout. Come this year, I’ll give more love to this virtual space which I proudly call mine. I’ve also made exciting plans in terms of beauty for myself and the blog. Will sure once it’s 100% confirmed! 🙂

Health wise, I’ve fallen sick more times than before. I’ve also neglected exercise in the latter half of 2014. This time round, I am going to allocate time for exercise which I will commit to in 2015.

Weight wise is still on the high side but I’ve NouriFBC to thank for, as I’ve dropped inches and half a size. Now, XL is too big for me when it used to fit just nice, and I can fit into M for certain cuttings.

I want to try to go all out to get to my ideal body size and weight this 2015. And also for health sake, did I ever mention that I have high cholesterol two years back? I’m not sure if it went down as I did not have a chance to go for a test since. I have not been watching my diet carefully though I’m proud to say I quit bubble tea and even if i do drink it, it will be 0% sugar. I also cut down a lot on fast good, probably had it less than 10 times in 2014.

I think one thing I failed in life ever since I started working is that I do not save. It is a bad habit to be living on your monthly pay with nothing to fall back on. It won’t be easy saving much with the plans I have for 2015 but I aim to at least clear all my debts(still paying my study loan for Polytechnic) and have at least two months worth of salary as emergency savings.

Got to curb all those retail therapy urges and find some other harmless to the pocket activities when I need to release some stress.

It’s also quarter life crisis for me this 2015, hitting that 25 mark. Gosh, I can’t believe that I’m turning 25 so soon! It felt like I’ve just graduated from Polytechnic. I decided that to handle this “crisis”, I’m going to put focus on self improvement. Be it work, personal, mentally or physically, I want to be a better person.

And nope, this post shall not have any images. I have also decided that I want to write more this year too.

Looking forward to a great 2015 with you guys!

Cheers!

Joyce.Forensia

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Things I look out in a man

Before I go on about the list, I shall first state that I’m a super superficial person.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder or something along the line, does not applies to me. Don’t tell me that as long as you love the person, it does not matter tall, short, fat, skinny. Why don’t you go date any Tom, Dick, Harry then?

Friends around me would say I’ve super high expectations which I agree.

Why settle for less?

If you expect A, don’t settle for B or C just simply because everyone around you is getting attached or married.

Imagine settling down with a B or C and then you met A. Regrets, and maybe cheating will come in place. All sorts of problems come along. And the poor B or C will be hurt.

Definitely, you have to search through the many Bs and Cs to finally find your A. But that doesn’t mean you are allowed to give false hope to the other party if your feelings aren’t mutual.

Then comes the questions, do you find someone you love more or someone who loves you more? The perfect answer will be finding someone who loves you as much but to be honest how high is this possibility?

For me, I rather someone whom I love more. At least he’s someone I wanted and I will be happier. If it’s someone who loves me more, I think I will just keep picking on his flaws simply because I don’t love him as much?

Hence, rather lead a carefree single life then wasting my time and B or C’s time while I continue my search for A.

Well, I guessed I’ve made my point. So let’s move on to the actual expectations.

HEIGHT

I’m pretty blessed to be have a height of 1.68m and I love my heels no matter how much they bite me. I’m also pretty sure no guys would actually not mind their girlfriends taller than them right? The ideal height I look out for would be 1.78m min to about 1.9m? Anything taller, I don’t think I want to look up all day, my poor neck.

I like pretty guys and manly ones of course. I just have a soft spot for pretty charming looking guys. You know those 美男子 category kind of guys?  A perfect example, would be my idol Danson Tang. Pretty handsome man whom is muscular at the same time. By muscular I mean fit, like lean muscular and not the huge muscle man type. Best is have 6 packs abs or at least some form of abs or flat tummy.

I don’t really like guys who’re too tanned. Not that I’m not attracted to tanned good looking guys. But I’m like pretty fair and taking photos beside a tanned person shows too stark a difference in skin tones.

Best is those who just happen to not get tanned no matter how long they stay under the sun. LOL.

But of course, though I prefer fair guys don’t mean I won’t fall for tanned guys. 😛

INTELLIGENCE

Ok, this is pretty important. He needs to be able to hold intellectual conversations. IQ and EQ should both be on the high side. I’m not a super smart person, so I would like someone smarter than me at least. I cannot handle someone that is least smart. Ask me stupid questions and I’ll say bye bye.

He must know a lot but that does not means that he can be arrogant. I’m pretty much a clumsy person and he needs to be able to look out for me. 😛

MATURITY/AGE

I for once, cannot stand childish guys. This does not equals to age, but rather the mindset. However, I don’t think I’m able to accept guys that are more than 7 years older than me. Maximum 7 years older and I don’t think I can accept younger unless he proves to be mature.

He needs to know what he wants in life and have a clear plan of the future. He don’t have to be super rich but he needs to know how to handle his money. He needs to be decisive. I think that guys who works hard in their career are super attractive.

OTHERS

I like guys to be in control but that doesn’t mean he can be possessive.

I really hope that my future partner is able to play a musical instrument. I think that guys who are talented in music are super duper attractive.

He needs to like cats. I personally love cats and if he’s someone who hate cats, I don’t think I will like him very much either. Ok, to be fair, he don’t have to like them, but he has to be ok/neutral with them.

He cannot interfere with my way of life. Meaning, trying to change me or trying to stop me from having my time with my friends. Trying to change me is definitely a no-no. I will never give up friends for a guy, but I will definitely allocated more time for my future partner.

He cannot be selfish or petty. I think it’s a major turn off.

The list can go on and on. But I’m going to be stopping here. Somehow I feel, I’m describing Mr Non-Existent/ Mr Only appear in my dreams. LOL.

Probably, many of you might say that I’ve high expectations. But if it’s a guy that I might be spending my life with, I cannot anyhow right?

To be honest, there was a point of time in my life where there’s this guy which I like a lot. He pretty much match most of the things I’ve listed down. The sad thing is, he belongs to someone else. One sided love – story of my life. The other sad thing is, he still has a small little space in my heart. And it’d been 3 years.

#foreveralone

 

I keep telling myself, I deserve better. And I’ll wait for the best man for me to appear. I believe that one day, he will appear.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

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