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Entering 2019 With A Mission

Every beginning of the year, we will start seeing ‘New Year Resolutions” popping up everywhere on our socials. But often, we tend to post these resolutions for the sake of it. How many of these resolutions have we actually realized?

Asking myself that question, I know my answer is no.

Hence, instead of a new year resolutions, I have a mission instead which I began back in Dec 2018. Because actions is louder than words.

Starting on a Weight-Loss Mission

I got a wake-up call…

When I look through my recent photos back last month, all I see is round, round everywhere. Round face, fat arms and bulging stomach. I clocked in my heaviest weight ever at 82.2kg on the 4th December. I was horrified. Like how did I managed to let that happen to me?

I must admit that I’ve been slacking a lot on exercises and binging a little more than just occasionally in 2018. I was approximately 75 kg when I began 2018, having lost some weight in 2017 as I was being pretty active by going to rebounding classes.

Taking Action

The weight-gain was not an overnight thing. I know I was gaining weight but I kept thinking as long as it’s below 80 I’m fine. I will start exercising again after my knee fully recovers and the weight will go back down.

I must say that never happened. My knee recovered but I never got back to being active. I was complacent till the 80 kg appeared on my scale. And I knew I need to do something and so I did.

They always say that it’s 80% Diet and 20% exercise. And I decided to start on my diet while slowly increasing my active level. I’ve tried many types of diet in trying to lose weight and this time round, I put my bets on the Keto diet accompanied with Ketones supplement. And I must say I’ve placed my bets right this time.

Motivating Results

Exactly one month after I clocked in my heaviest at 82.2kg, I weigh myself on 4th Jan 2019 and I was down 5kg to a 77.2kg.

The thing about a diet is that you lose motivation when the results is minimal. But when you see substantial results, you will not think twice about rejecting the cake your colleague offers you. And 5kg in the first month is enough to keep me up with staying with my diet.

I still have more to lose. But seeing my face getting less round and my body in a better shape spurs me on. My end goal is 60kg and this is my mission of the year.

My current weight as of this post is 75.6kg which means I’m 15.6kg away from my end goal. I’m hoping to hit my goal by June and I think it’s achievable.

With every weight-loss journey, it’s important to have support and I’m glad that I’ve strong support this time round. My brothers to motivate me in exercising. I’ve a new colleague who’s doing Keto as well! And of course encouragement from friends help a lot too!

2019 is going to be great.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

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2018 in a nutshell

I was in the train early this morning and watching the leaves fall from the trees as the wind blows. The scene is so apt for this time of the year.

这落叶的季节就好比一年的完结。新的一年的来临,就好比萌芽的新叶子。

2018 started on a very low note for me. With me being tormented emotionally by a relationship destined to doom and it eventually ended at the beginning of the year . Though at the same time, I realized that I’ve got really awesome friends that I need to treasure in my life.

Friends who showered me with love and concern. Reminding me that it’s ok to have my heartbroken, because they will help me pick up the pieces and glue them back together. Like how I thought it’s going to be another lonely Valentine’s but the amount of love my friends gave me warms me so much that it was the most memorable one for me so far.

Traveled to…

Bangkok with the girls

Decided to go on an impromptu trip to Bangkok with the girls in March. It was a super fast-paced trip as we were ambitious with our itinerary and wanted to make sure we got tons of shots for the gram.

Overall it’s a tiring but fulfilling trip. Also nearly missed our flight, and got our names called for the first time. Definitely a memorable trip!

Seoul Tripping

First time spending my Birthday overseas and it was in Seoul. Booked this trip quite last minute, like only 1 month in advance. It’s a trip with the Mum and Godsis. We enjoyed ourselves with the street food and shopping but my Mum and I both agreed that we prefer Japan more. Regardless, I’ll probably be heading back to Seoul in future again with better planning. And next time round I will wear that hanbok!

First Solo Trip To Tokyo

I booked my air ticket in February for a solo trip to Tokyo in November for 12 days on a whim. I’ve been wanting to travel solo for the longest time and finally made the first step. I didn’t reveal my plans to my Mum till 1 month before the trip and I know she’s angry. But I’m so glad for this solo trip as it open my mind and eyes. I came back with a new mindset and a happier person I would say. And I’m loving the freedom and peach that comes with solo traveling. My favourite part of the trip got to be Hakone, the view is simply stunning and I saw Fuji-san! Will need to write about the trip in another post. This is just the first of many solo trips to come.

Flew overseas for 4 times including my work trip to KL in April. That’s a new record and I don’t think I will beat it in 2019 as I’m looking to be more thrifty next year. That being said, I’ve a family trip in talks with my siblings. Hopefully it will be realized as we have never gone overseas together as a family.

I Became A Cat Mum

Say Hi to Coco

I’ve always been a huge cat lover and always wanted a cat of my own. I nearly become a cat mum at age 7 but that didn’t work out. And now 21 years later, I finally adopted a cat of my own!

I think it’s really fated because I wasn’t actively looking to adopt till I’m sure that my Mum is ok with having cats in the house. My 3rd brother moved back home this year in April after 15 years of living outside and he brought his cat back home. My Mum was treating the cat like her own in a week though she was very against the idea of bring the cat back.

That’s when I know it’s the perfect time to find a kitty of my own and I found Coco through my friend! Brought her home end of September and she’s with us for 3 months now and many years to come. She had also doubled in size which means it’s time to control her diet. 😛

With the addition of 2 cats in the family, we came to realized that we are really a family of cat lovers. My other 2 elder brothers dote on Coco alot too. Like bringing her out when I was away, playing with her etc. We do dote on my 3rd Brother’s cat too but she’s a little too fierce and too rough with her paws. But I guess having scratches all over is a norm for cat owners.


Last Selfie of 2018

On Both Physical & Mental Health

2018 was not a very good year in terms of health for me. I’ve been falling sick a lot more than usual and also getting into more accidents and injuring myself a lot more this year. Clumsy is no excuse for those accidents and I know half the time it was because I wasn’t focusing. And that links to my mental health.

I entered 2018 sad, angry and frustrated. I lose weight and gained them back and even hit over 80kg. 82.2kg was my heaviest and I know I got to do something about it. I’m at 78.1kg now and looking to hit 60kg in 2019. I spent a lot of time and $$ on my face in 2018, focusing on the superficial but still a necessity. But it’s time to focus on my body and mental health moving on.

I decided to work on my lifestyle, my diet. And I’ve also perked up the courage to try new things. Eg, Going for a Strip Tease class and learning strip dance for the first time in my life.

I know I’m ending 2018 on a better note than when I entered 2018.

Am looking forward to 2019, when things will only get better. I might be getting less active on my socials but I’m looking to write more here. To a better me in 2019!

Goodbye 2018. I’ll see you in 2019.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

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First Tattoo

Inked – Rose, Star chain, ‘Have Faith’

Some might think it’s an impulse. Considering the timeline when I announced that I wanted to get inked was around the time when I ended my relationship. But have faith in me, that’s definitely not the reason.

The Star

I’ve always wanted to get a tattoo for a long time. And I know I wanted to have the Star of David inked. Not because of the actual meaning behind it, but simply because that’s the very first star I learnt how to draw as a kid. It have always hold a special place in me and I even have the charm of it on my Pandora bracelet. Mind you, each charm on my bracelet have got a meaning to it.

Have Faith.

This is something I always tell myself when I’m facing a hurdle. And I feel that it’s a good constant reminder for myself. To have faith and strive on. For when a door is closed on you, there will be a window opened somewhere.

The Rose with Thorns

The beautiful red rose, looking vulnerable to humans wanting to pick it. But if one is not careful, you will get hurt by the thorns that protect these roses.

It’s a flower that resonate well with me. A Rose with thorns. Being nice all the time, doesn’t mean I don’t bite when I’m not being treated properly. Never ever let myself be taken for granted.

Searching for the right artist

Everyone have a different way of art and every artist portray art differently. Instead of google, I took to Instagram for my tattoo artist hunt. Looking through various artist works, before landing my eyes on a particular style and design. I think I was pretty lucky, cause I managed to find one that I like pretty quickly. Plus points when the artist also owns a cat. 😀

The Tattoo Experience

Now after all the prep work including discussing and finalizing the design with the artist. The next thing is to prep yourself mentally for any pain that is to come during the inking process. To my pleasant surprise, it didn’t hurt as much as I thought it will and the whole process was faster then I thought! But then again, mine was a small piece. It hurts a little in the initial part when the needle goes certain way into the skin, like an ant bite sort of by those big ants. But after that it’s fine.

Healing of the tattoo was about a week. Just got to endure the itch and the temptation to scratch and make sure to moisturize well.

I really like my first tattoo, which is everything I want. And I’m actually thinking of getting a second already. But it won’t be that soon, till I find something else meaningful to be added to my skin permanently.

XOXO,

Joyce.Forensia

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My Thoughts On Dayre

A Confession

Many of you might have noticed that I’ve hardly blogged in this precious space of mine that I’m so proud of for the past year.

There are many factors to my negligence to this space.

I was preoccupied with a relationship that have now ended on a bad note. I deleted the post on Dayre because he saw it, came to talk to me and gave me the closure I wanted.

It’s been a month now, and I think I can say I’m ok now. I did spend a whole day being super miserable about it. And another few days feeling super angry and unjust. But I think I’m slowly finding peace with myself. Memories still haunt me but I guess with time they will retreat to the archives of my brain.

I guess I just have to have better judgement in future.

And yes, Dayre.

That’s where I have been regularly updating for the past 2 years. And I’m sure many of you have heard of how the owner of Dayre have decided to close it down after a feeble attempt at fundraising through a sticker sale.

The news has been nothing but upsetting within the Dayre community. Dayre have been a space for many to rant and share easily. It’s like a blog with Instagram and Twitter capabilities all in one. One can just update on the go as and when. And as its name suggests, Dayre is like a dairy, all posts are sorted by date. You can look back and see what happened on the day itself.

It’s unfiltered, raw and real.

Unlike a proper blog where everything is curated. Maybe mine is not as carefully curated as others. But the effort in taking proper photos, having a proper thought process, making sure information and all are accurate… All the effort behind a proper blog post is different from micro-blogging.

Just like how I never shared about my relationships issue on my blog because sometimes emotions just come at that spark of the moment. Dayre allows me to just type out my thoughts in one line. But in a blog post, I must ensure that I have certain number of words, certain number of photos, certain number of outbound links etc.

It didn’t use to be like this. A blog used to be as personal as what Dayre was. But somehow with the popularity of social media and all, a blog has evolved to be a curated platform, just like Instagram. And I think that is a problem that is created by us, the users.

When the announcement was made that Dayre was closing. Many users were scattering to find an alternative and some even created a petition to try to save Dayre. It will be good if Dayre can remain. But I’m pretty sure that even if it’s bought over, the new investors would probably make changes etc and it might not be the same Dayre we love anymore.

Let’s be honest, if the app can be monetized, why would the current owners not do so?

For an example, Dayre Plus. The price point has been lowered from 128 USD to 37 USD but only 300 over users out of 50K active users are subscribed to it.

Another example, the sticker sale. The sticker set cost about 5 USD and only 700 USD was raised. Which makes only about 140 people who supported the sale. True, it might have better response if they let us know how much they need. But to be honest, how many of you have paid for stickers even before this Dayre crisis?

As a normal Dayre user, I’ve only previously purchase 1500 coins which was 14 USD and supported the sticker sale at 5 USD. That’s 19 USD I’ve contributed to the app while using it since end 2013 though I was only more active on it in 2015.

I could probably buy more stickers etc but the Dayre team is not really working on their stickers set like Line app etc. I spent a substantial amount on Line stickers and themes. And I don’t even use it as much as Dayre. So, this is two-way to be honest. You need to let the users have a way to support the app through viable means.

Like the original creator of Dayre said, the app was created for users. We all love it and enjoyed using it. But to say the cruel truth, the demise of Dayre is because of us, the users.

We weren’t that willing to pay for the extra features for Dayre when it was well and running. And now when it’s closing, all of us suddenly wants to crowdfund to keep the app alive? I’m sorry to say, things don’t work that way. Even if someone were to buy the app, will they see enough value to even invest?

I still do hope Dayre can somehow survive because I love the community for how it is. The support and encouragement that strangers gave to each other. Those are priceless. And I’m thankful for that.

It had been awhile since I’ve written so much. But I think I need to remind myself this is my own space. I don’t have to upload photos if I don’t want to. I can write however I like. If you want to read the beauty/ travel related stuff, you can click on the categories on the sidebar and ignore personal posts as such.

And with that, I will try to update more in this space of mine moving forward. Because I neglected it way too long. It’s not the same as Dayre but this was where I originally started. And of course, I still have Twitter as my ranting space. I mean, that’s why I had 42K tweets till date. But I did tweet a lot lesser after Dayre.

Oh wells…

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Dealing with Skin Allergy

Skin allergy, it just happened with no warning. Or maybe there was, just that I didn’t give much notice.

It started with an itch, followed by the redness and the rashes. Then it started peeling and the red marks that remain during the healing process makes you look like you’re having a horrible infection.

skin allergy rashes

When the rashes became prominent

I made the mistake by scratching. But the itch was so overwhelming that I can’t help it.

Itching is something common when you have sensitive skin, little did I know that the itch this time meant something different. I tried to stop myself from scratching by putting ice to ease the itch or hitting my skin instead to inflict pain so as to overpower the itch.

But the itch is not the worse.

The raw red rashes that protruded from your skin to drying up and tightening of the skin that makes it felt like sandpaper. It looks like something you get from an infection but it’s just your skin being allergic.

Then comes the peeling, bits of skin rubbing off your skin. And when you try to peel off that piece of skin dangling, you might end up peeling off skin that are not totally detached and end up with a small tear.

DO NOT PANIC

No matter how bad the skin looks, do not panic. It won’t help but will just make you feel more miserable.

Stop all sort of skin care and go back to the very basics. Cleanse, tone and moisturize. For me, I stick to just cleansing, non-alcohol toner to soothe the skin and ointment for the affected areas.

Identify the reason for your allergy. Have you use something new in your routine? Did you feel itch before the huge reaction when you use a certain product? Sometimes allergic reaction don’t act up immediately.

Having sensitive skin, my skin itch occasionally when using certain products that are not suitable or when my skin just happens to be at a weak stage. But itching happens rarely.

Identify the reason behind the skin allergy

I identified the culprit behind my skin allergy after realizing that I’ve been itching every now and then ever since I started using it. And I’m very disappointed because I liked the product and the results it gives. The product in question here is the MKUP Real Complexion Cream. I’ve really liked the product and been wanting to write a review before the reaction. I’ve been using it for almost everyday since I’ve purchased it in the beginning of May

Thanks to the help of a fellow beauty blogger friend who experience skin allergies often, I came to understand why is the cream the cause of my allergy.

Apparently, some of the ingredients inside are too harsh for the skin. Think fruits acids, tranexamic acid(similar to a skin bleaching agent), arbutin which induces peeling. These are some good ingredients, and they also have rosewater, calendula etc which are good for sensitive skin. Sadly the ratio for the harsh and strong ingredients are on the high side, which can make the skin over-sensitive from prolonged use.

I’m not one that read the ingredients list thoroughly, I’ll just take note of the main ingredients instead. But I guess from now on, it’s better to research properly for my skin’s sake. I never had such a bad reaction before but I guess once is enough. I’m not an expert but I thought I knew enough to choose products for myself. Skin allergy is scary both physically and emotionally. I’m lying if I say I don’t feel depressing with these red rashes on my face.

I must say that I could have prevent this huge reaction from happening if I give more notice to the mild itch that occurred since I started on the product. But sometimes you just don’t think it’s the product but maybe it’s the dust or your pillow etc etc.

Keep track of your routine

I guess I will also start to take note of the products I use and the date I started on them. And will try not to introduce too many new products into my routine at one go. I’ve also just throw out a stash of products and samples that are nearing expiry that I’ve kept for a while.

I still have a range of skincare products pending review which I’ve yet to start using. At least it’s a brand I trust. You can’t really go wrong with Japanese brands. But I guess it will be the last skincare brand which I will be reviewing for sometime now as I don’t want to traumatize my skin further after it healed.

After peeling

Here’s hoping that my skin will fully recover soon so I can start wearing makeup again. The only good thing is that I’ve extra 20 minutes of sleep everyday since I can’t wear makeup while my skin is healing. You could wear makeup to cover up the rashes, but I rather not aggravate it as the skin is ultra-sensitive at this stage. 

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