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Happy 30th to me…

Except it’s not a very happy moment for me right now.

I’m not referring to the fact that I’m stuck at home during my Birthday due to the Circuit Breaker. I already took leave and am prepared to just the whole day to chill. To just eat cake and anything I want, dress up and take pretty pictures and just watch shows I enjoy.

The fact that my mother is in the hospital right now due to unknown pain is worrying me. Though I’m kinda glad that I bought a cake and we both ate it on Sunday. Our Birthdays are 5 days apart btw, her’s is on the 4th on May. And here I’m hoping that the force is with her no matter how cliche this might sound.

29th April 2018 – In Seoul, Korea
29th April 2019, Staycation at Sentosa Beach Resort

Two years ago, I was spending my Birthday in Seoul. Last year, I spent it at a Staycation in Sentosa with 2 of my girlfriends. Initially I was planning for a party or at least another staycation in one of the more atas hotel.

I mean it’s not every day you turned 30. It’s the year where you have to finally change that identification card. It’s probably the only thing I look forward to because I can finally change that picture which I hated. It’s also a milestone where you finally survived that quarter-life crisis. Though I won’t say I have a very successful life till date but at least I know what I want to work towards for the next 5 years of my life.

To be honest, Birthdays ain’t a huge deal. Although it is still nice to know that people remembered this day of yours.

If birthday wishes do come true, I hope that my mother will be ok and that the our lives can go back to normal soon.

Last photo of me being in my 20s. LOL.

Happy 30th Birthday to me.

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Hello 2020, You’re rather unwelcoming

The start of a new decade.

The beginning of a new era, or so we thought.

But who would have thought that a pandemic would happen in this year full of hopes? Especially for those who had a rather bad year in 2019. Maybe 2020 is an end instead of a beginning.

I think for us Millennials especially, we were taken by surprised. We were kids when SARS happened. I think I was 13 then, starting a new chapter in my life in Secondary School.

This year I’m turning 30. The impact is greatly different from then when I was 13. It’s not as simple as earning extra school holidays. Uncertainty is what I felt mostly. I worried for my parents, who are in their 60s and more vulnerable to the Coronavirus. My worries are valid as they are not in the top of their health in 2019 with multiple hospital stays and Cancer.

We are now in the middle of a Circuit Breaker. Well, it’s a special term in place of calling it a “Lockdown”. We started working from home, learning from home. We are basically enclosed in our flats. I count myself lucky that I still have a job and income. That the company I’m in is fighting this pandemic with innovations and initiatives.

Some of my immediate family members are not so lucky as they are in F&B which sadly is greatly affected in these times. Which means they will be home instead of out even if they are in the essential sector.

You must be wondering, isn’t it better if they get to stay at home instead? Yes, it is for the better. In terms of having less chances to be infected by the virus. But they stopped having an income, and them being home 24/7 while I’m the only one WFH is taking a toll on me.

I must say I’m ain’t the best person at controlling my emotions. I enjoy and treasure my peace. When things are normal at my house, I’m the only one working a normal office timing while the rest works a night shift. Which means 95% of the time I’m home alone after I ended work. But we enjoy our family time during the weekends when we are all on a break.

They ain’t wrong when they say “Absence makes the heart fonder”. You just have less friction when you spend less time together. I mean we ain’t exactly a happy family to start with.

That’s why I decided to revive this little space of mine. It has been more than a year since I last updated this space. I’ve decided to start writing again.

There will be occasional makeup and skincare talks which is the main topic I’ve built this blog around. I will also be catching up on my backdated travelogues. Can you believed I have yet to blog about my solo trip? Good gracious me. And also the occasional wordy posts like this one where I dump my thoughts.

I’m turning 30 in 2 days. Actually it’s like in 26 hours, since today is ending pretty soon.

I shall end this post here and talk to you all again soon.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

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Hitting the Weight Loss Plateau

Having started my weight loss journey in late December 2018, the kilograms loss in the first two months have been pretty fast. Within 2.5 months I see a whopping 8 kilos loss.

But soon I realized that I slowly stopped losing weight that quickly. Another 1.5 months passed and I only lost another 1.8 kilos. It’s pretty obvious that I hit the dreaded Weight Loss Plateau.

Discouraged

To be honest, it’s quite depressing to see my weight stagger between 75-73 for the past month. It’s like a yo-yo and it’s frustrating.

I’m way off my weight goal check in and it’s so annoying. Like what did I do differently? Should I workout more? Should I eat lesser? Should I eat cleaner?

How to Get out of the Weight Loss Plateau?

When googling for tips on how to move on from the dreaded weight loss plateau, you get two very common answers.

  • Increase physical activities which means to burn more calories
  • Intake lesser calories then your current intake

Which is pretty much common sense. I guess it’s easier to increase physical activities rather than eating lesser calories because my current calorie intake is just a little less than a 1000 calories. I’ve started my diet based on a 40% deficit and I don’t think I should eat lesser than that.

Ignore the scales

One other way is to ignore the scales because it can be inaccurate. Although it seems that I hit the weight loss plateau, I’m actually still losing fat!

30th January 2019 VS 15th March 2019

Thankfully other than the number on the scales, I do take photos to record my journey too. And from the photos I can see a slight difference and that motivates me to continue on my journey. It’s very easy to get discouraged when there’s no results and just give up. So it’s very important to monitor yourself in all aspects! Remember the number on the scales is not everything to losing weight! Photos is a good form of motivation!

Can you spy that little bit of a collarbone? 🙂

I think it’s important to accept the different up and downs on any journey. Hence I’m writing this down as a reminder for myself and anyone out there who’s also on a weight loss journey. Remember to not be discouraged and just push on till you hit your goals!

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

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Entering 2019 With A Mission

Every beginning of the year, we will start seeing ‘New Year Resolutions” popping up everywhere on our socials. But often, we tend to post these resolutions for the sake of it. How many of these resolutions have we actually realized?

Asking myself that question, I know my answer is no.

Hence, instead of a new year resolutions, I have a mission instead which I began back in Dec 2018. Because actions is louder than words.

Starting on a Weight-Loss Mission

I got a wake-up call…

When I look through my recent photos back last month, all I see is round, round everywhere. Round face, fat arms and bulging stomach. I clocked in my heaviest weight ever at 82.2kg on the 4th December. I was horrified. Like how did I managed to let that happen to me?

I must admit that I’ve been slacking a lot on exercises and binging a little more than just occasionally in 2018. I was approximately 75 kg when I began 2018, having lost some weight in 2017 as I was being pretty active by going to rebounding classes.

Taking Action

The weight-gain was not an overnight thing. I know I was gaining weight but I kept thinking as long as it’s below 80 I’m fine. I will start exercising again after my knee fully recovers and the weight will go back down.

I must say that never happened. My knee recovered but I never got back to being active. I was complacent till the 80 kg appeared on my scale. And I knew I need to do something and so I did.

They always say that it’s 80% Diet and 20% exercise. And I decided to start on my diet while slowly increasing my active level. I’ve tried many types of diet in trying to lose weight and this time round, I put my bets on the Keto diet accompanied with Ketones supplement. And I must say I’ve placed my bets right this time.

Motivating Results

Exactly one month after I clocked in my heaviest at 82.2kg, I weigh myself on 4th Jan 2019 and I was down 5kg to a 77.2kg.

The thing about a diet is that you lose motivation when the results is minimal. But when you see substantial results, you will not think twice about rejecting the cake your colleague offers you. And 5kg in the first month is enough to keep me up with staying with my diet.

I still have more to lose. But seeing my face getting less round and my body in a better shape spurs me on. My end goal is 60kg and this is my mission of the year.

My current weight as of this post is 75.6kg which means I’m 15.6kg away from my end goal. I’m hoping to hit my goal by June and I think it’s achievable.

With every weight-loss journey, it’s important to have support and I’m glad that I’ve strong support this time round. My brothers to motivate me in exercising. I’ve a new colleague who’s doing Keto as well! And of course encouragement from friends help a lot too!

2019 is going to be great.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

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2018 in a nutshell

I was in the train early this morning and watching the leaves fall from the trees as the wind blows. The scene is so apt for this time of the year.

这落叶的季节就好比一年的完结。新的一年的来临,就好比萌芽的新叶子。

2018 started on a very low note for me. With me being tormented emotionally by a relationship destined to doom and it eventually ended at the beginning of the year . Though at the same time, I realized that I’ve got really awesome friends that I need to treasure in my life.

Friends who showered me with love and concern. Reminding me that it’s ok to have my heartbroken, because they will help me pick up the pieces and glue them back together. Like how I thought it’s going to be another lonely Valentine’s but the amount of love my friends gave me warms me so much that it was the most memorable one for me so far.

Traveled to…

Bangkok with the girls

Decided to go on an impromptu trip to Bangkok with the girls in March. It was a super fast-paced trip as we were ambitious with our itinerary and wanted to make sure we got tons of shots for the gram.

Overall it’s a tiring but fulfilling trip. Also nearly missed our flight, and got our names called for the first time. Definitely a memorable trip!

Seoul Tripping

First time spending my Birthday overseas and it was in Seoul. Booked this trip quite last minute, like only 1 month in advance. It’s a trip with the Mum and Godsis. We enjoyed ourselves with the street food and shopping but my Mum and I both agreed that we prefer Japan more. Regardless, I’ll probably be heading back to Seoul in future again with better planning. And next time round I will wear that hanbok!

First Solo Trip To Tokyo

I booked my air ticket in February for a solo trip to Tokyo in November for 12 days on a whim. I’ve been wanting to travel solo for the longest time and finally made the first step. I didn’t reveal my plans to my Mum till 1 month before the trip and I know she’s angry. But I’m so glad for this solo trip as it open my mind and eyes. I came back with a new mindset and a happier person I would say. And I’m loving the freedom and peach that comes with solo traveling. My favourite part of the trip got to be Hakone, the view is simply stunning and I saw Fuji-san! Will need to write about the trip in another post. This is just the first of many solo trips to come.

Flew overseas for 4 times including my work trip to KL in April. That’s a new record and I don’t think I will beat it in 2019 as I’m looking to be more thrifty next year. That being said, I’ve a family trip in talks with my siblings. Hopefully it will be realized as we have never gone overseas together as a family.

I Became A Cat Mum

Say Hi to Coco

I’ve always been a huge cat lover and always wanted a cat of my own. I nearly become a cat mum at age 7 but that didn’t work out. And now 21 years later, I finally adopted a cat of my own!

I think it’s really fated because I wasn’t actively looking to adopt till I’m sure that my Mum is ok with having cats in the house. My 3rd brother moved back home this year in April after 15 years of living outside and he brought his cat back home. My Mum was treating the cat like her own in a week though she was very against the idea of bring the cat back.

That’s when I know it’s the perfect time to find a kitty of my own and I found Coco through my friend! Brought her home end of September and she’s with us for 3 months now and many years to come. She had also doubled in size which means it’s time to control her diet. 😛

With the addition of 2 cats in the family, we came to realized that we are really a family of cat lovers. My other 2 elder brothers dote on Coco alot too. Like bringing her out when I was away, playing with her etc. We do dote on my 3rd Brother’s cat too but she’s a little too fierce and too rough with her paws. But I guess having scratches all over is a norm for cat owners.


Last Selfie of 2018

On Both Physical & Mental Health

2018 was not a very good year in terms of health for me. I’ve been falling sick a lot more than usual and also getting into more accidents and injuring myself a lot more this year. Clumsy is no excuse for those accidents and I know half the time it was because I wasn’t focusing. And that links to my mental health.

I entered 2018 sad, angry and frustrated. I lose weight and gained them back and even hit over 80kg. 82.2kg was my heaviest and I know I got to do something about it. I’m at 78.1kg now and looking to hit 60kg in 2019. I spent a lot of time and $$ on my face in 2018, focusing on the superficial but still a necessity. But it’s time to focus on my body and mental health moving on.

I decided to work on my lifestyle, my diet. And I’ve also perked up the courage to try new things. Eg, Going for a Strip Tease class and learning strip dance for the first time in my life.

I know I’m ending 2018 on a better note than when I entered 2018.

Am looking forward to 2019, when things will only get better. I might be getting less active on my socials but I’m looking to write more here. To a better me in 2019!

Goodbye 2018. I’ll see you in 2019.

XOXO,
Joyce.Forensia

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